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| Written by Heidi Cornelissen |
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I'm writing this sitting on a rock on the bank of the Ganges River. We're in a remote forest lodge spending a couple of days away from all things rushed. Arriving here yesterday I felt disconnected and out of place as we have no ways of contact with the outside world: No TV, no phones, no internet and intermittent electricity. Life is simply breathing, eating, reading, chatting and walking. Yesterday, I felt anxious faced with the prospect of this reality for two days. "What on earth am I doing to do?" I wondered thinking about the number of projects I'm involved with back home. I'm organising events, updating programs and finishing my book. Although I'm unable to work on any of those things out here, my mind continued to race between all of them with anxious thoughts of ‘What If'. But today, I sit in deep gratitude for the nothingness I have before me. My background noise is the constant sound of a waterfall rushing down over rocks and plunging into the Ganges. This is interrupted only by the odd shouts of children playing in the water. I'm already enjoying the prospect of more nothingness and wishing we had more time to spend here. Experiencing this nothingness has allowed me to return to my body with a feeling that all I need I have with me right now. I have no control over things that I thought I controlled. Things feel clearer and I feel fuller, being not so thinly spread. We return to the hustle and bustle of the city tomorrow and projects, events and people will once again demand my attention. Yes, I will give it to them but with a deeper sense of calm, presence and wholeness. I understand that all that has happened in the interim would have been perfect, regardless of me being involved or controlling things. I will accept it as such. I trust that I will be okay and so will everything else be. I've reconnected to a knowing that nothing matters beside each moment and a fully appreciative mindfulness of each precious moment. Life will always go on within its perfect, grand design with me worrying about them or not. I asked a client, struggling with anxiety, last week to do a guided visualisation exercise. She breathed deeply and pictured herself on a horse. "Uh, oh," she replied, "My horse just bolted from under me. It's running away." "Yes," I answered, "That bolting feeling is the feeling of worrying about the future. Now try and bring your horse back to you. Slowly. Climb back onto him and now ride together."
Sometimes you just need a respite to catch up with yourself. Your mind is the horse that bolts ahead and causes disharmony and anxiety (read fear) which causes the rest of you, namely your body and spirit to shut down. It does this to cope with the perceived pressures. Being fully appreciative of the perfection of the present moment eliminates this stress and energises you. David Deida, Way of the Superior Man warns that " ... Life slips through your fingers, your attention absorbed in the seeming world of necessary responsibilities. But all of it is empty if we do not live our responsibilities as expressions of our depth of being and heart-truth. " For a sense of fulfilment and wholeness, all aspects of yourself need to be consciously present in each moment. If you're worrying and controlling this is not the case. Instead, when you're whole and consciously present, you love yourself. It's this love that drives out fear and invites a feeling of divine perfection to rest deeply in your soul. So, breathe deeply. Often. Appreciate this moment fully and bring your horse back to you. Ride together and feel the bliss, which is your life.
Heidi Cornelissen is a life coach based in Perth who specialises in personal freedom and authenticity. Her passion is helping you engage with who you really (authentically) are. This involves self-awareness, connection with- and ultimately loving who you are, without need for pretence. For more information and resources, visit www.completelyhuman.com.
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